one step at a time

im at a very frustrating yet good point in life right now. im frustrated because im stuck. stuck in my relationship. stuck at work. just stuck. and by stuck i mean im not really moving forward or moving at all. im like working up to the point of being content and on top of things but im not there yet. and its hard because i want to be. i guess i have to realize that things arent going to fall into place right away and in my head i was figuring that since ive been here for almost 2 months that i would have everything figured out and a set schedule going. but it hasnt turned out that way. and that has been my biggest struggle so far. but everything takes time. even relationships. and ive been so badly wanting things to go my way that i havent taken a deep breath and a step back to tell myself "look, not everything is going to happen for you in one day."

i lose my patience in my relationship a lot because of things that have changed. but its been awhile since david and i have come close to even having a normal relationship(and by normal i mean not long distance). if you could even call our relationship at any of its points normal. because even before he moved all our relationship was was time spent together leading up to him moving. and maybe its just going to take time to get back into the groove of things. like i said before we are healing. a healing long distance relationship is bittersweet. wed been seperated for 2 years and i cant expect it all just to go back to normal in an instance! i mean after all wed only see each other a few times a year. now its practically every day. thats a drastic change. so i guess ill just take a deep breath and take things one step at a time so i dont drive myself or anyone else crazyy.

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